You've made the world a stranger place.

God damnit Blogger (wy webpublishing tool) why don't You behave? We used to be such good friends

The strangest things truly happen dear anonymous friend. In fact, it's You and me now - yes You. How does that make You feel?
You may already know that i am, in fact, single. If they shoot Singles part II I can have a major part (you know, that Seattle movie...). If it where up to me, I'd be some slick, a little bit mean, hard to get kinda guy. But thats probarly not going to be the case, Im sorry to say. I'd probarly be that sensitive, romantic, boring one.
The world is never easy on You, friend.

There is really something wrong with the updates. They just don't show up when they ought to. I wonder where they are, perhaps in the same country where the missing socks live.

If you make a search on 'Dirty Recruiters' on Google, You just might stumple upon my page. Strange... I do not know what a dirty recruiter do, but I sure would like to meet one...

I think my english is getting worse and worse.

One might wonder why I don't talk about my grrl-f so much nowadays. For starters, I haven't written that much in the past weeks, and there is no grrl-f anymore. But theres still Lips. I could talk about her anyway, it's not like we're mortal enemys, quite the opposite. But im anyway to busy with myself right now.
Well here's the new Max place: a nice little flat in an old building, from like 1920/30 or something. It's on the bottom floor where You can look at a little garden outside (and a factory but thats not really within reach... or well, it could be). Tomorrow, I might celebrate with some red, red wine, and some white, white Marlboro. Look there - some product placement. I'll receive $100 bu cheque some time soon.
Gotta go. Can't sit at work writing stuff like this. Im an importent person, and im going home soon anyhow! Real soon...

Well, what can I say about my new apartment - - - it's fabolous. It's like a castle, like a house on a little praire.
Yes, it's very nice indeed. My limbs hurt today though, and I haven't really slept tonight: to many new sounds, the bed placed not quite like it used to... I think Im gonna enjoy living there.
Such a simple thing and everything feels so much better.

I do not know what to say or who to say it to. At least im moving today, to another apartment, but in the same no-good town. My life's in desperate need of a reboot.
Maybe im talking to myself here.
Im so tired of everything: on me, on the surroundings, work, my jeans, shoes, haircut, haircolor.... I do like the weather though: spring. Nothing is ever all bad I guess... But what if it starts to rain... Where do we go then?

This is really getting out of hand. I never ever update apparently (difficult word). It's not that nothing ever happens, 'cause it does. Everything happens. The whole world has changed.

It's tuesday, I guess spring has arrived, or have I already mentioned that. I should not have mentioned that 'cause spring didn't arrive until late sunday evening.
What does it take to get a new job in this god forsaken country? Whatever it is, I ,apparentley, don't have it.

Maybe I should close this page down. I never update anyway.

Ok, now I can't see any messages in the guestbook... Typical...
Im gonna complain some more 'cause I really don't feel so good nowaday. Perhaps I've caught some spring depression or something flying around. I just want to feel good, and I don't, quite the opposite frankly. I want good things to happen.
Fuck, fuck, damn, hell, I wish I could more english bad words. I h-a-t-e feeling like this. Im all weak and fucked up to my toenails.
Take a cold shower, Max.

So, I applied for a job in a company selling food for pets. I even mentioned that I've had almost every pet there is; dogs, cats, crabs, fishes, birds and little white mice. That must be a good thing.
Im in need of good things right now. I might even say im desperate but then I'd sound desperate and I don't wanna do that, so I don't say it.
Im not used having all theese different moods all the time. Once, one person even thought that I didn't have any emotions whatsoever.
Max is on loosing street now, but Im gonna win at the end.

By the way, the two records I bought where:
Bear Quartet
Edson
They're swedish bands both of them in case nobody ever heard of them. Nobody barely heard of them in Sweden either. Im a little disappointed and thinking about buying a new record today.
This tuesday is spelled b-o-r-i-n-g

And why the fXXk don't my guestbook work? Don't rely on free services. Most often, they suck, and when they don't do that they're just plain bad.

Im trying to learn asp (active server pages), Im trying to get in shape, I want to learn how to play the guitar...
And what do I do?
I buy three beers, a couple of records and a frozen pizza.
Thats me.

Im just upating to have a update. I don't really want to write about anything.

This is the longest day in life. This week is the longest week ever.
Things are so fucked up I can barely see.
Fuck, damn, hell.
Thats it.

Hamburger and fries for lunch. It's not that good. I would rather have something with noodles. Noodles are god for you. Noodles make me happy. Here are some things that don't make me happy:

• My boss
  
• The fact that there's more than a week left for salary
  
• Some of my collegues political affiliation(spelled right?), thoughts and ideas about imigration, the enviroment and the like.
  
• Some other stuff
  

One more thing that make me happy is this: Friday

I was sitting on the bus, on my way home from my 8 to 17 work. Every weekday, 8 to 17, barely no exceptions. Thats when it occured to me - Im middleclass. I might even be upper middleclass.
The word is spelled c-h-o-c-k
What does it mean to be middleclass then. Well for starters, You worry about the economy. Not just Your own, but also the economy of the country. You worry about the stockmarket, unemployment and not getting thoose loans You want.
I come from a low middleclass family, close to lowclass (?), poor, and You might think I’d be pleased advancing to my current position, and of course in a way I am. In my family, no one have any education to talk of, except me. I like having a good paycheck each and every month (I don’t like working for it but thats another issue). Well ok, thats all I like about work... Err, no thats not true. I enjoy being a professional. Being the one that people ask for help, ask because they would never learn what I know (they’re to old). Ok, blah, blah...
Back to the revolution.
I never used to worry about anything (thats why Im not allowed to take any loans or buy anything on credit for about three years ahead). If the job didn’t suit me, I quit, not worrying about tomorrow. I never could do something like that now. Lets be realistic - who’s gonna pay the rent, the food, the phonebill, etc.
See what I mean.
The life of a paycheckslave is far from the revolution. Avanti Popolo!

God does not play dice.

Suicidal Tendencies on the radio... I used to like them, but now im a middleclass worker and all i ever listen to is Dolly Parton and Elvis Costello... But im not gonna turn off the radio...

My collegue had to be at work early, so I took the opportunity of getting a lift with him. Of course I don't own a drivers license myself, 'cause im only 27.
Im early, and thats why I can't barely stay awake behind the keyboard. Sometimes, the greatest wish in the world is to just get 30 minutes more of quality sleep.
It's been to long since a met Lips. I reALLy miss her, and I miss having money in the bank. Why can't it be the 25th sometime=salaryday, soon. I should be more happy having a paycheck every two weeks, 'cause perhaps I shouldn't have the time to spend it all. Or at least didn't have to wait for so long.
Thats life.

Answer:

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Couldn't agree more. I agree so much it hurts.
MD - in pain
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Just a letter from my friend Marcel

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Hey man,
Well, back at work. You barely have time to come home until it's time to go back.
M - tired
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Couldn't agree more.

the clouds are walking in the sky. im so [insert bad word here] bored that I don't really know where to put myself. you shouldn't be bored at work, you should be busy.

im now to be seen in technicolour aND WIDESCREEN. damn CAPS LOCK. why don't you just get rid of yourself.
fight the power.

Things are getting somewhat difficult. People want me to get a new apartment, and they think that I want one in this city. What they don't know is that I don't want to live here. I wanna go down to G-City, to Lips. Im such a secretive person. Gotta get a new job r-e-a-l soon.
The weekend then... Well, ok - nothing more, nothing less. Beer, dogs, the pub, watched a documentary 'bout the Sex Pistols (pretty intresting) and... No, nothing more.
Now, it's Monday again. It's always Monday again.

Release the hounds James.
It's such a grey day, but then again you can feel spring's in the air. I saw a blue and yellow little bird and it reminded me of spring.
When im talking about the hounds I mean mothers tiny tiny petdogs. Im meeting them this evening, or perhaps tomorrow. I don't know if I visit the hounds or my mother when I go home. Perhaps both.
Well, it's not even morningcoffe yet, but it's friday. That's always something.

On my table right now: a digital camera, celluar phone, php book, a big paper showing how a php script is suppoosed to work, lots of other papers, monitor, keyboard, mouse, lot's of pencils, a box of 'snus' (swedish tobacco drug you put under your lip), packet of cigarettes, a postcars, ordinary phone, rubber, another phone, cd - writer, zip drive, lots of cd's, post it notes, some things i don't know the english word for, plastic flowers, a computer magazine, a yellow leaflet telling you how one should talk to clients, another ruler...
And nothings arranged in a orderly fashion. It's chaotic. They're everywhere...

why can't it just be lunch, summer, afternoon, all in once, as long as it's not now. i'd rather be in any timeperiod but now. good thing it's thursday though. thursday's good 'cause the next day will most often be friday.
i do complain alot.
i watched 'secrets and lies' yesterday (by english director Mike Leigh i think). it's such a good movie.
im not using capital letters much because im w h i s p e r i n g.

Seem that I often start my columns with "Ok, so..." Maybe I've been watching to many american tv-shows. I believe they often say things like that there, but I might be wrong. It is possible...
I've had a specualant on my apartment, but she didn't take it. Perhaps because I forgot to wash the dishes.

Ok, so I've been bad again, not updating my blog. But when nothing happens You kinda loose interest in telling an anonymous audience about what didn't happen.
But I'll try.
Here's what not happened in the last days:
I didn't get a new job
I didn't win a lot of money from some lottery
bla, bla.
Actually, You can mention almost anything and I can say I didn't do it.
But, here's some things that I've done!
Been in G-City with Lips
Made a tasty soup for her
Went to a party with some of her friends (Lula, Morgan, Lucky, amongst others)
Ok, seems I did do something then. And just to add some more excitement, I might tell You that Im soon to loose my apartment which means I have to live somewhere where I don't have a skinhead neighbour called Piglet, or some neighbours who look like the seven dwarves with beercans.
Spooky.